My god!! I suck at commitment,

to this blog at least....i have been keeping up my new found workout/love of running.... i don't understand how i can start to enjoy something that makes me so miserable the entire time I'm doing it...and i have the audacity to do it for at least an hour at a time...and on some days i do it twice.....i mean my body is killing me...my chubby thighs are burning from rubbing together.....i deal with the public embarrassment of everyone on the busy road where I usually take my jog, to see how slow and out of shape i am....and yet i have continued this religiously.....on the days i don't go running I'm thinking about running....about how i need to go farther the next day...or mapping out potential routes for me to take.....and Ive found that running/jogging/walking briskly is rather therapeutic....it helps center me...allows me to focus on my thoughts....has anyone ever seen WHAT WOMEN WANT.... the movie Starring Mel Gibson....this is such a random scene in the movie but its the part where Helen Hunts character is showing the NIKE commercial....and its says something along the lines about how the road doesn't judge her....that's how i feel....despite how sore or embarrassed or just plain frustrated i could be...all i have to do to help center myself is put on my ipod...tighten my sneakers....and start pounding pavement...and from that moment on its just me and the road....

It feels like sabotage

I would like to say that i am incredibly blessed that god brought the amazing man I call my husband into my life. He is an amazing cook, He cleans, and He buys me presents and knows my shoe size. A girl couldn’t ask for anything more. But I also feel like he sabotages me when I inform him anytime I venture out on my quest for weight loss. Albeit he might be doing it unintentionally but he does it every single time. For instance this week was supposed to mark the start of my Pre PCS (permanent change of station) body transformation. This also seems to be the week my husband wants to go look at boxes at U-Haul literally every. Single. Day. This week. I felt like telling him “I promise you hunny the medium box is still the same medium size the last time we looked.” It also seemed to be the week my husband wanted to cook dinner every single day and you know what he thinks is a great idea for dinner. Fried CATFISH!!!! Oh and let’s not forget about the pint of Rocky Road Ice Cream….just because he thought it would be a nice surprise for me to come home to! Seriously my husband is out to get me….

Alas even though my workout regimen didn’t go as planned, below is what I have done for the week:

Monday: Treadmill workout.
20 minutes spent jogging at steady 5mph pace.
20 minutes spent walking 4 mph at steep incline 10%.
20 more minutes spent doing interval training. Walk 3.5mph for 1.5 minutes running as fast as possible 7.5mph for 30 to 45 seconds… continue pattern.
• Time: 1 hour 5 min
• Distance: 4.69 miles
• Avg HR: 156
• Calories burned: 716

Tuesday: No workout Logged. Had to go look at boxes

Wednesday: Treadmill Workout. Walking at a fast pace (4mph to 4.5mph) with steep incline with some spurts of jogging to break up monotony
• Time: 1 hour 5 min
• Distance: 4.50 miles
• Avg. HR: 147
• Calories burned: 789

Thursday: No workout for today. I get to go look at packing peanuts and duct tape. My husband sure is a charmer. Nothing says L-O-V-E quite like spending the evening at home depot

TODAY marks the day IT starts

Sorry i suck at life. I really did try to post my workout yesterday but the day got away from me. I’m going to post my workout for today…and then ill finish the rest of the week when I get back from the gym....
Sunday:
1) Butt Builder Workout(found in 2009 oxygen GLUTES MAGAZINE) which consists of 3sets of 15-20 reps of the following:
• Hip Extensions
• Bridges
• Squats
• Fire Hydrants
2) Plenty of Abs 1 set of 25 reps of each of the following:
• Crunches
• Ab Ball Crunches
• Side crunches
• Bicycle crunches
• Decline sit ups
• Lying Leg raises
• Hanging Leg raises
• Planks (try to complete 3 sets of 1min. planks)
3) 1Hour Cardio

Sunday will officially mark the 1st day of my workout routine

And until then I am carefully planning what my workout routine will be for the next five weeks. You see I am someone who loves lists, rules, regulations, competitions, setting goals and exceeding expectations. This is how I like to make even the most mundane tasks (such as shopping for enough groceries to last 2 weeks, with only $150 in under 35minutes on payday at the local army commissary) seem exciting. As you can tell I’m such a thrill seeker. Once I get it all figured out on what my goals and workout will be I will post it up here, hopefully no later than Saturday night. Any tips or tricks or secret magic spells to help me out are greatly appreciated.

I've lost nearly a ton of weight......

OK if you really want to put it in perspective I have lost about 300lbs. Broken down into increments of five to ten pounds…..granted that it’s the same five to ten pounds that I lose and put back on over and over again for the last 5 years. I seem to do this thing where I lose 5lbs and to congratulate myself on a job well done I treat myself to ice cream from Cold Stone Creamery. Y’know, Because I try to reason with myself that I’m allowed to have one treat meal once a week. Well all of a sudden my treat meal carries on to the next day. Then I turn a blind eye to the fact that my one treat meal has lasted a week and a half, And don’t you know it by the time I realize I more than likely consumed my 5lbs back it’s been a good two weeks that I allowed the bad eating habits to continue and I’m back to where I started: five pounds heavier, feeling fat and bloated and upset that I waste my time losing and putting the weight back on. Think of this as a daily dose of reality…. If I actually applied myself and stuck with the eat right and exercise plan I would already be at my goal and I wouldnt have to spend more precious time writing a stupid blog to convince myself that this is the only way to be held accountable for weight loss….. ….moral of the story….stop being a fat ass…..keep going to the gym and to stay away from anything that tastes really really delicious because more than likely it’s a gift from the devil and should not be consumed

Chances are that if you’re reading this......

you are someone similar to me…..someone who has battled the bulge, fought with the fat monsters, counted calories, logged hours at the gym. Then all of a sudden for no apparent reason I just fell back into the dark chasm of not seeing results fast enough, so I throw all my hard work to the wayside and drown my sorrows in a cheeseburger. I’ve worked hard to lose around 80lbs and have managed to keep it off but I’m not quite yet where my goal is. My goal being to finally wear Single Digit sized clothing…. I find myself repeating the vicious cycle of weight loss…… work out, eat right, not see miracles happen overnight, gorge myself on candies and carbs, loathe myself for being a failure, wash and repeat. This blog is to mostly for me. Make my actions from this day forward accountable to not only myself but to anyone reading this…or no one at all.